My Story
Who is Primal Mama?
This is going to sound silly - my fear of infertility started at the age of 12 at a friend’s parents party. I was sitting in a small, dimly lit room across from a woman who held my hand upright, tracing across the lines of my hand. “You will have no children” she said, “just two significant pets”. Now this may not be entirely untrue, my two boys Santi and Arlo could be considered animals in many ways, but this one sentence from the palm reader at the party planted a seed in me. A seed of doubt that I would never be able to have kids, a fear that perhaps would be unexpected in a girl who had never even been on a first date.
As the years went by, this little doubt stayed buried away in the back of my mind. I went on the birth control pill at the age of 15 and stayed on it for nearly 10 years, all the while thinking I was having my regular monthly period. At the age of 25 I had already been married for a couple of years and we were beginning to talk about having a family. I was a student at Bastyr University studying Nutrition & Dietetics and a benefit to that was discounted services such as acupuncture and Chinese Medicine. During one of these first appointments, the woman across the table from me, a Chinese Medicine doctor, was taking an inventory of my medical history and asked me about birth control. When I told her I had been taking the pill for 10 years she stopped in her tracks - she said, “You have to get off of that immediately”. And I did.
"Again, that seed of doubt in the back of my mind began to grow - beginning to bloom into a true concern. "
For months after going off the pill I experienced no period, then it came infrequently. Again, that seed of doubt in the back of my mind began to grow - beginning to bloom into a true concern. After a year of very irregular periods, I was pleasantly surprised to discover that I was pregnant. We may not have been exactly where we wanted to be in life when welcoming a new baby into the world, but the relief of knowing we could and WOULD have a baby brought so much joy and relief.
Santi was born, as beautiful as could be. As the years went by, my husband and I knew we would want another, but Santi was now two and my cycle still had not returned since before pregnancy. I had gone about 3 years since my last period. That little seed which had been shoved back into the dark began to creep forward again. What if we couldn’t have another? I began tracking my ovulation with test strips, hoping that I was ovulating even if I wasn’t bleeding. Miraculously it happened again - that second faint line appeared on the pregnancy test and I felt like I had somehow narrowly missed the inability to bring another baby into the world.
Still, when I look at both my boys together, they feel like miracles. I find myself thanking the universe for bringing them to me often, even after the hard days of motherhood.
I want all women to be able to experience the hard, the good, the messy, the beautiful that is being a mother. I want your children to have the best chance at a healthy life, which is so greatly influenced by your health at conception and through pregnancy. I want to hold your hand through this journey and prepare you to welcome a little one into this world through nourishment and evaluating the aspects of your life that could use some extra love and attention. If you are hoping to bring a babe into the world within the next 12 months, I encourage you to begin preparing your body and mind for the miracle that is being a mama.
WITH LOVE FROM,
Arlo, Santi, & Sarah